Why am I doing this to myself

I feel as if I care to much about one particular person and they could care less about me. Like seriously why do I do this to myself? Whatever

I don't mean to be like this.

I'm sorry if i'm snappy. I'm sorry if i'm on edge. It's just everything in my life right now is going down hill and i have no where to escape too to make me feel better. I just have to sit here and feel like crap for another week and then i'll probably be fine, as always. Because that's all that ever happens to me.

I'm Tired of This

I am honestly so done with being treated this way. Why do people take advantage of me like this? What did i do wrong? Seriously though, all i have ever been, was there for you. And now you accuse me of not being there for you? Uhm excuse me who wrote you that 2 page letter when you were balling your eyes out? Oh yeah me. I forgot. And i seem to think that you forget how good of a friend i can be actually. I mean yes, im not like every other typical 14 year old but...why does that matter? I'm not sorry for the things i say to you. And yes probably everything i say to you doesn't make you feel good, i just give my opinion and you shoot me down! I'm sorry that my opinion  is the more mature way of looking at a situation, but maybe you should have thought of that before you did the deed? It's just a thought. Sometimes though i seriously hate how no one can relate to me. For example, if someone is having a hard core party with no parents there, everyone is like "OH YEAH LETS GO!" and then there's me and i'm like "No." I feel as if this situation is only going to get harder as i grow up. Unfortunately. Ugh Whatever i'm just so done right now.

Have you Ever

    Have you ever, just felt so helpless? Almost as if, you couldn't do anything for someone? I honestly hate feeling this way, I hate seeing others in pain and knowing that I can't do anything to help them. Then sometimes i think it might be their fault, because they don't come to me for help...i honestly don't even know anymore. All I ant is for people to be happy. Is that to much to ask for?